What a crazy few weeks it’s been! I haven’t really been doing much. I am constantly sitting on the fence between complete happiness and total disdain for my life. Actually, that sounds as if I have some sort of chemical imbalance doesn’t it?
I never really made any New Year’s resolutions. I just want to cease behavior that makes my life difficult (overeating, laying around the house doing nothing, being complete inactive and anti-social) Unfortunately I haven’t stuck to that so well.
I seemed to have developed a new sleeping pattern where I can hardly stay awake past 9PM and am wide awake at 5AM. These early morning hours are kinda nice. I have been getting a lot of housecleaning done: cleaning the kitchen & bathroom, making the bed, sorting and filing. And by the time I get thru my “mornin’ chores” it’s only nine AM!! Love that!! I have done a complete flip – time wise. I used to stay up till five or six am (usually after a night of whooping it up at a club) and then sleep all day! I prefer this morning stuff. But I hate the “falling asleep early” thing. I had a gig on a Saturday night and it about wiped me out. And we were done before 8PM!!! I haven’t gone out for ages. I think I might have to go out again just to get back into fighting shape. Can’t sing & dance until one AM if your bedtime is 8:30PM!!
And speaking of fighting shape – physically I am a wreck. I am so out of shape. I have got to start conditioning myself again cause this totally sucks. I look forward to getting in shape again. There’s nothing better than feeling your body respond to exercise. Plus I must get back into vixen form again. I am in the mood for a little conquering again. I have been on love lock down for ages now. Time to get the ole diva up and running again before I am too old and fat to do anything about it!!! Where does the time go?
Work is extremely slow right now. My slow time is always during the winter months of January through March, but in this economy it’s been brutal! Luckily I am still getting calls about work and thank God folks are still getting married. And we are not overpriced so someone can still afford us! Still, it’s a tad shaky out there.
Life is just nuts. My friends are going insane. I think it’s the Winter. Usually Winter doesn’t phase me so much, but this one is starting to get me down. I long for some sun on my arms and grass between my toes, you know?
And this economy shit is really weighing on the soul. All of this worry and fear can’t be good for the planet and it certainly sucks for the human spirit BUT ever the optimist, I shan’t give up hope for us all! Back to work! Back to me!
P.S. The cat is at times, a handful, but cute.
