It's been a couple of weeks since the evening in which I performed a reading of the Fat piece from my solo show. I was nervous, I was uncertain. It had only been a fantasy for so long, a work in progress, my biggest obstacle in the long running marathon to complete my solo show. The writing is the hard part - until you think of performing it live in front of people. The many drafts have been edited, critiqued, undone, reconstructed within an inch of its life and still it seemed "not ready," but …
The Adventures of Permanent Lifestyle Change Girl: Eating and Moving and the Fear of Knee Pain.
I am committed to making this work. But I am afraid that my knee pain will kick in and make this activity a living Hell. My new relationship with fitness is a month old. If this was a love affair I would be cautious. I wouldn't call it a "real relationship" yet. I would wait until three months to see if it had legs. Will my knees hold up and let me stay with it? Is it a committed relationship, or am I just having a casual fling? There is no choice in the matter. I'm in it for the long haul. …
The Adventures of Permanent Lifestyle Change Girl – The Reboot! My Trainer Got Real Today!
I knew it was coming. Last week, Jeremy the trainer was such a nice young man, gentle and kind. Today, he was still kind as he gently kicked my butt. It felt good - even when I fantasized about flinging that weighted ring thingy into the window instead of moving it slowly "to the right side - shoulders down, relax the neck." I kid, because I know that we are doing very basic movements, I'm just out of shape. This old body of mine is hanging in there though. I only wanted to stop once or twice. …
The Adventures of Permanent Lifestyle Change Girl – The Reboot! My Physical Assessment and (EGADS!) My Eating Habits!
Day Two of my journey to fitness was a session with tiny Kimberlee and involved a physical assessment and a few simple questions about my eating habits. The physical assessment involved me standing on what looked like a weight scale with a pull up bar attached. "Stand on the platform hold the bar and wait: one, two, three ... PULL as hard as you can." The bar doesn't actually pull up, it just measures your ability to pull up. It felt like I was trying to lift a garbage truck. There was no …
Been meaning to write but inexplicably unable to do so
The title of this blog is taken from one of my favorite greeting cards. I wrote a different title back in March, shortly after my last post and saved it as a draft. The title was The Ugly Truth. Just a title no content. It's probably better that I didn't post it. I can't really remember what I was going to write about then. I take clues from my tags that I had in place: diet, diet & exercise, personal growth, plus-sized women's issues blah blah blah. I can imagine what the post was to be …