Note from me: I wrote this post in early April but never published it. It seems that now is the time to let it all hang out before I start the "New York Chronicles." April 2, 2013 I go through this a lot. This self examination, this self incrimination. It was a normal morning. I stayed up till dawn watching a Sci-Fi series via Netflix on TV so I slept late. I was feeling hopeful. I booked two gigs this morning and I'm up for an award for Industry Excellence in Entertainment. Not a bad …
The Adventures of Permanent Lifestyle Change Girl 2013
My eating, the Mirror, the scale, video of me performing (Egads!) There is no denying it. I have become a fat bitch again. Don't despair folks. We obese people can say these things about ourselves. And no matter how many of my dear ones smack my hand or pound the table as they offer their support by saying: "Don't say those things about yourself!" The truth is that I have to face the truth. No matter how well I sing and no matter how much the people love me in spite of the rolls of flesh I …
The Joy of Writing in Cafes
is definitely the people watching. I sit here as people, sometimes alone, often in groups enter the cafe either confidently like regulars or tentatively as though they are waiting for an armed booby trap to spring. …
Bricks and Mortar
And I said to him: your silence is like a wrecking ball. Then I realized that no one can knock my house down. I've stood tall and strong for fifty years. I started thinking of how much damage I've done to myself: weight, unfulfilled promise of my talent, fear and lack of action. Sometimes I stop working on my life and just go day to day, waking and sleeping, running errands, paying bills and not much else except worrying about the past, ignoring real issues and yearning for love and …
A Wonderful Man has Died.
I am sad today. A very dear man died over the weekend. He was a friend to the world of classical music, he was a reknowned expert and dealer of rare antique violins (Stradivarians & Guarneris) and stringed instruments. He loved life. He loved rock n roll. He loved my singing. We had great affection for each other. We traveled to Russia together. I am friends with his lovely daughter. I was honored to call him friend. …