If you really want to be closer to God - try forgiveness and understanding. Accept the fact that as Humans, we make mistakes, and the ability to forgive someone's misstep even if it may have had devastating effects is truly a gift of the divine to a deserving person. And sometimes the person or persons may not be worthy of it but the generous heart spreads goodwill to the World in general by the act of forgiveness. The worthy will pass it forward. …