Weird day today. A friend, a good friend who I've known for decades expressed "worry" that I might drop dead from being fat. Actually she said: "I worry about you" and then proceeded to tell me that another friend wanted to do an "intervention" which I later found out was not true. It was handled so cavalierly. It wasn't a "sit down" or an intimate conversation. She said it in passing, almost as an aside in the middle of a phone conversation. We weren't even talking about weight. It caught …
Been meaning to write but inexplicably unable to do so
The title of this blog is taken from one of my favorite greeting cards. I wrote a different title back in March, shortly after my last post and saved it as a draft. The title was The Ugly Truth. Just a title no content. It's probably better that I didn't post it. I can't really remember what I was going to write about then. I take clues from my tags that I had in place: diet, diet & exercise, personal growth, plus-sized women's issues blah blah blah. I can imagine what the post was to be …
People Will Stare.
Venus of Willendorf, 22,000B.C.E One of the great joys of the Spa at Trump - besides the luxury, great staff and amenities - is the fact that the locker room is often empty. It's huge and there are plenty of places for the modest naked woman to change in complete solitude. I usually show up in the middle of the day when most folks are working and I have the entire place to myself or so it seems. That pleases me. But on this particular day, I get to the spa closer to the end of the workday …
The Amazing Adventures of Permanent Lifestyle Change Girl: Starting Over.
I hope the title of this post spells it out for you. I have not been diligent in my quest to change my physical self. I must confess that I have been eating with total abandon, have done no exercise and frankly, I haven't even given a damn. I have been eating a lot and loving it, well, that is when I am not feeling uncomfortable from stuffing myself silly. Actually, I feel like a junkie or alchoholic who has fallen off the wagon... the food offers me comfort and immediate satisfaction that …
Waiting for the Shoe to Drop
I sent a "Happy Birthday!" email to a friend today, thinking how fortunate it was that a mutual friend reminded me of the birthday in time. She is a gorgeous woman, smart, funny and vivacious. She responded: Thanks so much..50 can u believe it!!!! I'm sitting at... hosp waiting for my 3rd radiation treatment..3 down and 13 to go!! But doing well. Miss you! Happy New Year X0X0 Picture my stunned reaction: mouth dropped open - stunned face. She went to the doctor. Had her mammogram. Bam! …