Life is good – mostly

I have been avoiding writing in my blog for a few days now and I just didn’t wanna let it go much longer and so I am writing some nonsense so that I am still in the game. I’m feeling out of sorts today.

I was gonna go the the Trump Spa and work out and indulge in all of the free stuff (gym, sauna, disco shower, peace, luxury etc) but after lunch with a friend and her daughter I had to go home and rest. I was tired and I fell asleep in the late afternoon and slept too long so I fear I will be up late and I have a morning gig. I need to go to sleep at a decent hour.

I get like that sometimes, I retreat and hole up in my house, in the bed. I am awake all night and of course asleep all day. The cycle is hard to break mostly because I like staying up and watching movies. I have been a night owl since childhood.

My place is a total mess and I think it is getting to me. I won’t let anyone in my house – I haven’t for years. Gosh, that sounds crazy! This post is starting to sound whiney. But I’m just feeling a bit introspective.

I haven’t been in love in years. I am actually quite happy about the love thing, my last forays into romance have been so frustrating and angst-ridden that I consider every day as single is a day without misery and a nice change of pace. It’s a relief! I used to be one of those unrequited love types – always into some guy who wanted to be “friends.” But I’ve grown out of that habit – I hope!

I have a tidy post I wrote a bit ago about that topic that I have to finish up and you are gonna love it!

Business has been terrible. But it is looking up in 2010.

My cat has been very annoying. Sometimes I wonder if she has brought some stress to my life. I like her a lot but sometimes I wonder why it is such an adjustment for me. I have been solo for so long… and then she starts scratching my furniture or running out of the door at every possible moment, ands sometimes the licking sounds when she cleans herself drives me to the edge of sanity! On the other hand she looks awfully sweet right now. She’s sleeping with her legs all over the place and she looks pretty adorable. Sigh – I guess I’ll keep her.

I am fat. But I have been making some progress in my food consumption control. Today, I ordered fruit on the side and didn’t even miss the fries! I still haven’t gotten on a regular work out routine but I want to. First,I have to clean out my home gym so I can actually use it.

Performance wise: I feel good. I have some newly gained confidence and I have stepped out of my comfort zone more than once. Baby steps of progress… at age 48, I am still growing and making some mistakes along the way.

Actually, I feel pretty positive. I have been making the effort to be a better person and making the effort makes me feel better. That’s all we can do right? So though this post started out as a rant, I can not deny that I am a very fortunate person.

How’s that for a random post?