Strange days. I am a very upbeat, positive kind of person. I always look on the bright side of most situations and people. However, lately my usually happy-go-lucky thoughts have turned to those of my own mortality. Stroke, heart attack, Cancer, disease and death are what I visualize on a huge roulette wheel and it's spinning. Whose number will be up next? It could be me. I could be next. There could be Cancer cells growing in me right now. A little clot may be waiting to stir loose and …
A Great Loss: Pete Special
Oh My God. I just got the shocking and sad news that Pete Special died today. He helped propel me forward in Chicago as a bandleader and singer. …
When I Miss Her Most … thoughts on Mother’s Day 2014
I lost my mother on April 14th 2000. It was sudden and upon hearing the news I learned the true meaning of heartbreak. When I got the news that Mommy had passed, I fell to my knees and screamed. The primal scream: I found it that day. But that's not what I want to dwell on here. Usually, I just let Mother's Day slip by. But today I want to write a tribute to my dearest love, my mother. All that I am, any goodness in me, came from her. There's some fucked up shit too but I know that I am a …
Playing the Odds with Our Health.
I am reeling from a scare yesterday. Someone very dear to me suffered a mild stroke in her home. She is younger than I and lives alone. Luckily she was able to get out and get herself to the hospital within an hour of the occurrence so she is expected to recover 100%. But this reminds me of two important things: we must keep track of our loved ones especially those of us who live alone and we need to stop playing the odds with our health especially those of us of a certain age. …
Old Dreamers
This is a note to myself and others like me: underachievers, those with gifts who believe they haven't fulfilled their potential, those who have been writing a book, play, or dissertation, making a movie, recording a CD, going to a comedy open mic, opening a restaurant, going back to school and haven't done it yet. We know who we are. I have written about this shit for years: losing weight, writing my one woman show. And I reckon this is just another testament in a long series of promises I …