How was I able to just decide one day and then stick with it for two years? Why did I stop and gain all of the weight back? I loved exercising! I loved feeling my body grow strong. I loved eating healthy. I never felt deprived. I did it sensibly and slowly in the way all of the experts advise you to do it. And yet, still I gained it all back.
I know what happened. I stopped caring. I have been ignoring my body for a long time now. It’s easy to do. I just don’t think about it. Changing a lifetime of bad eating habits and an inactive lifestyle is hard work. It requires discipline and commitment. One has to set a goal for change and stick to it. I simply gave up the fight and stopped caring for four years! I’m done with that not caring bullshit. It literally makes my knees hurt!
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I have no choice. I have to start again. I can not let this relapse bring me down. I believe that is the key. You have to just keep trying. This is a lifestyle change after all. I know it ain’t gonna be easy. I also know that it is key to my overall well being. So, here I go again. I know I am not the only one struggling with this problem. I know what I have to do. And today was a good day. So was yesterday – except for the cocktails – oops! Little by little is the way to go. Urge by urge, bite by bite, minute by minute. My days will become filled with decision making. But I know from experience that in the long run, I will be happier once I start caring about my physical being … Again! and let me tell you, my body isn’t the only thing I’ve been ignoring these days.
You know what? I’m excited to start caring again.
I will keep you posted.
You can do it, Lynne. I know you can. If you lost all that weight once, then it is possible to do it again. Set a date and give yourself a goal. Think of the new clothes you can get once you lose the weight!! I am behind you 110%, shimmy.
Thanks Rose!!! I ain’t giving up!