Yes, I know it’s freezing… But the sun was shining brightly and I was awake and decided to take a walk in the brisk cold air and you know what? It felt great! Lately, I have been inactive and binge eating and my house has been a total mess. And I’ve hated myself for it.

But today I got up early and I took a walk. It wasn’t a long walk but considering that I haven’t moved my body in ages – I am happy. The cold air and sunshine gave me an entire new perspective about everything. Sure, I was outta breath but I kept thinking to myself:

If I keep doing this I will be able to walk a lot farther in just a couple of weeks.

I think back (2002-2004) when I used to bike ride for an hour or more every day and lift weights and do core work. AND WHAT HAPPENED TO MY SWIMMING? HELLO? It seems like a life time ago and my body feels like crap most of the time and now I really have to pace myself when I sing.

I want to be one of those super charged sweaty chicks when I sing – not all sweaty and outta breath because I’m outta shape!

And I have gotten huge!!

Well, today I am just sick of it! I am sick of knee pain, and breathlessness and not feeling cute… Eww! I’m done! I am sick of being a fat bitch.

Now folks, don’t worry, I am not down on myself. I am high on myself. I want something different. I want to feel better about my physical self. If I’m in shape – I sing & perform better. I certainly dress better!!!! And from the the way I feel right now – I know I will feel better.

So anyone else out there who knows they need a change, just decide to do it. Stop talking and thinking about it and just do it. Of course I’ve only been on this new life change thing for one day and it hasn’t even been an entire day – BUT RIGHT NOW – I feel great!

BONUS NEWS: Bill Zwecker mentioned me & the Band and our Seth MacFarlane (Family Guy) musical adventures (see last post) in his Glare Column in the Chicago Sun Times:
“Zwecker’s Column”
Follow the link to see – but there’s a photo in the actual paper.

So today I took a walk in the brisk air, decided to change my physical self for the better AND I got a mention in the paper.

It’s been a lovely day so far.

Tags: aging and women, bill zwecker, body image, chicago sun times, family guy, fitness, life change, Lynne Jordan, lynne jordan & the shivers, lynne jordan and the shivers, Seth MacFarlane, weight control, women's body image
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