nigger, nigger, nigger, nigger, nigger

That is the opening line of a piece from my one woman show that I performed at the January Story Jam series in Wimette, Illinois. Wilmette is a mostly affluent, predominantly White suburb of Chicago. I entitled the story “nigger,” which tells the story of the first time I was called such by a White person. I have to admit that I had some reservations about presenting a story about being called a nigger to a mostly White audience – for about a minute. Hell, I told the world that I weigh 300 pounds in my “Fat” piece, so I figured: “I’m just keeping it real” and besides, I injected a dose of humor into the story, so what did I have to lose? It turned out that I had much to gain by the experience. Continue reading ›

My Words for the New Year 2016 and for 2015: Verklempt & Gratitude!

Singing for Redmoon's GCFF: the most wonderful photo ever. Photo: John Zich

Definition: Verklempt is a Yiddish word that means “overcome with emotion.” Pronounced “fer-klempt,” people use it when they are so emotional that they’re on the verge of tears or at a loss for words due to their emotional state.

I am Verklempt.

I’ve been trying to compose a New Year’s message but I am just so grateful for the love that I have received, the response to my Gofundme campaign and my recent sold-out show at City Winery (for starters) that I just end up sitting at my computer weeping uncontrollably. There is always the desire to discard the past year (if it was a particularly shitty one) and look toward the new: Put aside the past crap and move forward. Yet, I can’t help but reflect on the New Year as a growth of seeds sown in the previous year. Everything that has happened to me in my life has made me who I am. You can not truly escape the past. You can’t change it, but you can learn from it and approach the coming year with new hopes, plans and ACTION. So my New Year’s resolution is to learn and love the past year and take action to be the BEST I can be in 2016.
(Thanks Fred for my new mantra)
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January 1, 2016: Wonderful Night at City Winery Chicago. Photos!


Glorious. Happiness. Joy. Dancing. Laughter. Some tears. Fantastic dress. Gorgeous make-up. Killer band. Special guests. A drag queen. Music. Fela! Sold-out show. So much love. Continue reading ›

Little Gray Dots.

Little Gray dots

I should explain. The little gray dots are the seats sold for my Lynne Jordan & the Shivers Concert at City Winery Chicago. The other ones – the little brown dots are the unsold seats and there’s quite a few of them. I try not to go to that page every minute though it is bookmarked on my computer and every mobil device that I own. Continue reading ›

The Adventures of Permanent Lifestyle Change Girl: A Confession About Me & Food and What I’m Gonna Do About It.

I have been working out with a trainer since April 2, 2015. It’s been a big commitment and I feel stronger and active. I weigh 300 Lbs so it has been no small feat to keep this body moving and I have lost weight BUT before anyone starts patting me on the back I have a confession to make. Continue reading ›

The New Star Wars Movie. (The Force Awakens) Not Just Another Star Wars Film To Me.

The FORCE AWAKENS. It certainly has – in all of us!

I spent the better part of the wee hours of this morning posting first reviews, videos and photos from Star Wars like some crazed adolescent fanboy! The opening of this movie may be the one thing that excites me ALMOST as much as my gig at City Winery on Jan 1st! I saw A New Hope with my mom and brother back in 1977. It was unusual- us going to the theater as a family to see a movie- but we knew it was special. They sold programs for that first Star Wars feature and I got one and I purchased an action figure – which I still have. I remember when A New Hope began: that big black screen and the opening crawl appeared:

“A long time ago in a galaxy far,
far away …”

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It was a great party, and I hung out with Lisa Lampanelli.

Me & the wonderful Lisa Lampanelli

I met Lisa Lampanelli at a party last night. I spent an evening with one of my favorite comics in an intimate setting. She was real and down to Earth. She was funny and sweet and inspirational. But so was everyone else. I met some great folks. Meeting Lisa in such a setting was a treat. Continue reading ›

My Friday, Jan 1st Concert at City Winery Chicago: The Preparation, The Worry, The Show.

Diva in a red dress.

It’s 5AM and I figure that I may as well do something besides bemoan the fact that my sleep schedule is screwed up. I have a lot of work to do for my upcoming Lynne Jordan & the Shivers show at City Winery Chicago. They asked me to perform on New Year’s Night which happens to fall on a Friday. This is a change, as all of my past shows have been on a week day. One might think that would be easier to fill the seats but it is New Year’s Day and folks will be out of town or tired from New Year’s Eve parting, so it’s going to be tricky to fill the room and I have less time to work on it. usually I have eight weeks to push a show at City Winery. This time I have less than a month. PLUS I have added lots of new challenging material. I will be singing a song in at least two languages: Japanese and French. I have also decided to perform a song by one of my favorite artists: Fela Kuti. I also hope to include the wonderful French Harpist/Composer Isabelle Olivier to play with us as well. She is the artist who brought me to France this year – TWICE. She added so much at our July show. Continue reading ›

The Adventures of Permanent Lifestyle Change Girl: The Good Pain of Working Out.

Every muscle in my body aches.

That was my cry to a cousin the day after a very strenuous weight training workout with Trainer Jeremy. She became concerned:

“Don’t do too much. You could hurt yourself.”

I quickly explained that I have entrusted my training to a wonderful professional and the key to building strength and endurance is challenging oneself to do more every time. The pain is not serious. It is my body’s natural response to the work. And it feels good because I know that my muscles are being activated. Hell, my body hurt when I did nothing for ten years. I was lethargic and constantly out of breath by just walking down the street. But this recent pain feels good because I know that my body is waking up. The more I push, the more I can do. I welcome it. I cherish it. It is cause for celebration because I am building my strength and prolonging my life. Continue reading ›

U.S. State Department issues Worldwide Travel Alert.

This is some scary stuff. Oftentimes, I shrug these things off, perhaps foolishly, but this time, so soon after the many attacks on innocents around the globe, I am worried, saddened – aware. But, even as the real haters of the world continue to threaten us, and challenge our joy of life, I will continue to love and hope. I wish us all safe travels and enjoyment as the Holiday Season approaches. I can’t help but think of a verse from my Mother’s favorite Psalm 23:4
“Yea, though I walk through the valley of the shadow of death, I will fear no evil: for thou art with me; thy rod and thy staff they comfort me.” Continue reading ›